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OUR Minds
"PERFECTLY FLAWED"
& Chaotic Chatter
What exactly is a relationship?
It is between 2 people, usually. Unless one of you decide to bring in someone to talk shit to about your partner. Then it becomes more than 2 people. Am I wrong? Friends, coworkers, family members, marriage, dating, neighbors or whom ever. Everyone's definition is ALWAYS going to be different. Just like the use of the word, "LOVE". I have been in 3 serious relationships, 1 was a marriage of 16 years. The other 2 obviously were just practice or stupidity. After my husband I dated a guy, "the notorious rebound guy", that lasted roughly 6 to 8 months (ish). Smothered me in every way, was king, did anything I asked or wanted! Then there was the "my kids are more important than oxygen" guy! He was perfect, a gentleman, manners, good family, had a job and his own vehicle. What I didn't know, was that he was recently out of a very long relationship and had way to much carry on luggage, if you know what I mean. I gave and gave to that one. 2 years later, poof, he decided I was the crazy one. I may have been. I have a lot of my own baggage claim that I own! I have dated men, woman, younger, older, different backgrounds, educations, you name it. I never did try those sites like Christian Mingle, Plenty of Fish or Farmers Only. Seemed sketchy to me. I like doing things the old fashion way. You know at a bar, beer goggles in full effect! Everyone knows how successful that's been. NOT!!! My current relationship is the icing on the cake. The only similarities between them all, Jealousy, insecurities, controlling, monitoring my every move and constantly being accused of cheating or lying. Now come the fuck on! I am the most caring, loving, selfless, giving, gullible and forgiving person. Granted I can be a cold hearted bitch, when pushed. These are not relationships. This is not love. I am to old for this kinda shit life. I have spent nearly 25 years on repeat! Abuse in every form. Punished or manipulated. I am the only thing that they all had in common. Wheres the old fashioned guys? The ones who respect, love and honor a woman. Millennials are all about bitching and changing the world. Majority of them selfish and the world revolves around them, if they can stop taking selfies long enough. The generation before that are to busy blaming their childhood or parents for their failures. And our generation is the one between the good old days and the 90s. Our grandparents knew how to love and respect each other. They stayed together and not just because. They made things work. My dad had a key-chain when I was around 10, that said "MARRIAGE IS NOT A WORD, ITS A SENTENCE". I realized 15 years later what it really meant. My father loved my mother very much, so much he abused her. She always stayed. They say we learn from our parents. I don't fully believe that. I did stay in mine for way longer than I should've, but I am at the age that I know what I want. Now I just need to figure out how to get it. Friends come and go, guys come and go, coworkers and even family. Y'all life is fucking short. Tomorrow is not promised and yesterday is gone. Stop holding onto the past, it isn't gonna change. Start planning for tomorrow and put action behind it. I fear there are so many 20 and 30 somethings walking around waiting on Mr. or Mrs. right. Noone is going to save you! No one is gonna make all your dreams come true!!! You are your only hope for happiness. Do you!!! Do not settle for anything less than everything. If you can find happiness from within yourself, then you will win at life. None of us are getting out alive. We get 1 life. Hopefully at least a good 60 to 70 years to fulfill your dreams. Relationships should be fun, full of laughter, same goals and dreams, hobbies, enjoyment in life. If I could change 1 person from walking in my path, I would be satisfied. Life is hard, don't make it harder. Never give more than your getting!!! If your 1 of the few that have it all figured out, feel free to tell us!!
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am currently sitting in our local hospital here in South Georgia. Where they just came out of a very long drawn out hearing over their ethics. I am not one to get into the semantics of politics or put myself in a position to have a conversation with it as the subject matter. What I can say is that everything in the medical genre, here in the South, is below average!! The staff are not friendly or helpful. Do NOT even get me started on the ER staff!!! I do not know where they breed those people, but they left out a key ingredient!!! Their personality and genuine compassion. If you decide that the medical profession is your career path, keep in mind that on a daily basis you are dealing with people. People who are parents, children, spouses, elderly, moms and dads. Everyone comes from different walks of lives with different backgrounds. Insured, not insured or Medicaid. Educated and not educated. Poor and rich. If I were in their shoes, I would look at my patient as if it were my own flesh and blood. Each soul that puts their trust within the walls of any hospital or Drs office expects a certain quality, to be heard and understood. Human compassion is a RARE entity nowadays. There have been a handful of people during this visit, that were genuinely compassionate. Taking the time to tend to my mom and answer her repetitious questions (as she tends to forget things on occasion). As my mom health continues to decline, it's harder for me not to show my ass!! I have already had a VERY heated argument with one of the "doctors" a few months back. My mothers life is in their hands. When you cannot trust or respect the very thing that has a life in the palm of their hands - THERE IS A CATASTROPHIC PROBLEM! I will be damned if you're going to assume to know absolutely anything when your basing your diagnosis off your obsession with your own (political) views. Medical personnel should leave their biased opinions out of the equation or change careers. I hear the government needs a few more stubborn, opinionated full of shit people!!!
Rant over....... OR IS IT!?! We haven't even left yet. UPDATE 8/30/2019: Once again my mother was discharged with no real diagnosis. Apparently a certain medication she had been on, for GOD know hows how long, had been deteriorating her muscles. Thus, the weakness in her legs and inability to walk without falling or needing assistance. Wow, that tells me that between all of her "doctors" and all of the different meds she was prescribed - NONE of them could give her a reason to her symptoms. There is a lack of communication and knowledge within the medical community in this area. I am appalled at how much of a decline in the medical community there is. How much our COUNTRY and its "so called" leaders prioritize the core of our GOD GIVEN RIGHTS! Our President worries more with building walls, opiate addiction, LGBT community and other irrelevant issues! We the PEOPLE deserve to be FREE! Free to choose! Our COUNTRY makes me ashamed to be a citizen. Other countries have free health care, education, less poverty and homelessness. Yet, the home of the free, are not FREE! I also emailed the Director of the hospital, mailed out a letter and even left numerous voicemails and have yet to get a response! When you live in south Georgia you realize that the simplest things are a privilege. I am referring to the hellish temperatures in late summer. When it's so hot, that when you walk outside it has you cussing out the devil himself, or anything or anyone within reach of your voice! Hell is probably cooler than here. I take pride in getting dressed for work, as I am in sales, along with my makeup & hair. WHY?! It will melt right off my face within minutes. Forget volume in your hair, the humidity is gonna have you looking like a poodle after a bath. Even if the heat doesn't get to you, the 45% chance of rain will manage to cool you off with a down pour, with little to no WARNING. Our meteorologists here get paid ridiculously considering they cannot predict the time if they were looking at their watch. The forecast goes something like this: "Scattered showers for the entire viewing area. With a 40% chance of rain with partly cloudy skies. Highs could reach 95 with a heat index of 100. Your evening commute temps could be a comfortable 89 degrees with a heat index of 95. Little to no breeze, except for the left side of viewing area. 50% chance of a tropical depression forming in the Atlantic with a 45% chance of it affecting your weekend plans. You should expect a slight chance of rain becoming heavy throughout the night. Cooling down to a smeltering low of 93." The South is not a place to move or visit EVER!! Unless you plan on dying of heat stroke or slipping in your own sweat puddle. The rain does cool things off for the 10 minutes it blesses us with. Unfortunately once it moves past us (assuming to cleanse other towns) we are left with a mere, 125 degrees of fucking HELL !! Even when you return home (trying to dry off with the AC in car on HIGH) the home you keep on a cool 72, is not cool. It feels like a damn' sauna, until the middle of the night around 3 am. That's when it finally is so cold - you dig for the winter blankets you don't even own!!! 🔥 Today I literally wiped my face off with my breakfast napkin, the bottom half of my face was no longer blended by my expensive foundation. My Starbucks napkin now appeared to be hotter than me (the reminisce of my makeup) and the temperature. I need a vacation with a mild 82 as the high and a comfortable 75 as a low. Where does 1 find such a perfect place?!?! |
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