Perfectly Flawed ~ MindChatter
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OUR Minds
"PERFECTLY FLAWED"
& Chaotic Chatter
While we are all in the midst of the first pandemic, epidemic or fucking raging angry fueled grim reaper, himself, out to gain every soul there is.....I have been the personal victim of some angry lunatics. I get that most of you ran out and bought up all the damn toilet paper and lunch meat. Some of you were lucky enough to receive food stamps, unemployment, stimulus checks and other government funded safety nets for not being ESSENTIAL ~ possibly still are (no judgement here) good for you. But let me be the first to enlighten you on real world shit! As a single mom, 1 income, caregiver to my mother with numerous medical issues, barely making minimum wage, working 50 plus hours a week, no means of transportation (pre covid-19 relationship did not survive the added stress) therefore I lost the shared vehicle, my own health issues, addictions, anger, past trauma bullshit, survived a very abusive relationship (3 times), severe migraines, youngest son still at home and in 11th grade with his own medical issues and shit, not receiving any type of government assistance (apparently I make to much money), only got my portion of the stimulus because my youngest turned 18 in March and barely fucking making it --------- WTF is wrong with America? Y'all are so agitated, angry, pissed off and selfish - that I truly believe HELL ON EARTH is upon us. I have seen some fucked up shit in my life - BUT I am here to tell you I am ashamed and embarrassed by some of y'alls reactions! I wanted to list my shit (above) as a means to compare my life to those of you out there doing some shady ass shit. We all have issues, sad stories, started from the bottom, picked on, grew up poor, disliked, beat up, called names etc....Acting a damn fool and acting out is not helping the cause. No I am not talking about the George Floyd incident (We will definitely get into that in another blog) I am talking about you idiots out there hogging all the supplies, us poor people (MIDDLE CLASS) cannot afford name brand shit. WHen you hog all the essential supplies - all you are doing is causing those of us paying cash to have to pay double for less. I am pissed about that. I am so angry that I have literally spent close to $9000 on groceries, hygiene products, toilet paper etc since March. I don't make that kind of money. My bills are on the verge of being cut off because I myself bought in excess each week not knowing wtf was going to happen. We are back to our normal spending habits at this point. Now I am just trying to catch up my bills. 3 months of bills. There is no help, no justice, no empathy or concern from any of my providers because I am middle class and everyone keeps telling me I do not know how to budget my money. RANT OVER! Whoa....Definitely not my intentions to have rambled on and on about my personal life. I am angry. I am angry that we are not pulling together as people. I am angry that my relationship is over. I am angry that the life before COVID is only a memory. I am scared of what is to come. Where will covid 19 leave all of us when this over? Y'all need to sit your asses down, stop doing these non essential things and focus on what is around you. Because it will not last. Priorities are all kinds of backasswards right now. From the Presidents view all the way down to where I am seeing this from. Perspective is unique to each of us - As it should be. YOU are not wrong and neither am I. We the people need to start joining forces and moving as 1 entity. If not I am honestly terrified of where we are headed. This system needs to collapse. We need to quit giving fuel to the fire. Pull up a chair, pop open a cold one and chill the fuck out. Now, before my personal words, thoughts or opinions get blown out of portion for those of you who are offended by absolutely everything - get the fuck out of here. It is people like you who go looking for shit to get pissed off about! You are the problem. Not me. Get therapy, heal your inner child, write in a journal. The world is not your problem. Humanity is not the problem. It is poor programming and lack of the full picture that fuels the instigator, the drama queen, the low self esteem and the anger. We are not all alike. I grew up in a horrible home with violence and drugs. I was pregnant by 15 and married by 16. Divorced 7 years later and left as a single mother of 3. It sucked. I saw shit no child should have to. I then went through my own nightmare but I survived and I am still here telling the story. Fuck your childhood. So what you did not have a picture perfect past. Who really does. All of it is PROGRAMMING> We were raised to believe what we were told. Who to vote for. What friends we could or could not have. The foods that were put in front of us that was what we ate. All we are doing is carrying around a bunch of programming that someone in our heritage line was created and no one has been the wiser. Break those beliefs RIGHT NOW! Stop using your past as a crutch. Love who the fuck you want to. Eat what you want and damn it buy the fucking dress. Life is passing all of us by. While we focus on whatever the fuck we are told to focus on. By your leaders, parents or even friends. Think outside the box. Think for yourself. Let go of the past. The hate. The anger. The resentment. Breathe. Look around you right now? Where are you and what are you doing? Who is around you or in the other room? WHy are you spending so much time staring at the phone / screen / pc? Is your life perfect? Is your job the one you had hoped for? The kids - how are they? All your bill's paid and food in the fridge? If you answered YES to every single one - then you my friend ARE A GOD DAMN' LIAR! None of us are perfect and we all have our flaws. Stop putting your nose where it does not belong and focus on your own house and your own SHIT!!!
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